name zen yellow bright bold black line encompasses a bright lemon yellow centre the epitomy of simplicity and bold minimalism gives you space to think and uplifting colour representing the inner sunshine healthy ego self acrylic on canvas by uk artist phoebe thomasson

PROJECT: One Hundred Paintings #1

Day One “Zen Yellow”

The ‘day’ is not twenty four hours. It is mine to define. Every painting a day. This is number one. The first painting and the first ‘day’…

I was so happy to receive my new set of canvasses. Nice deal for me with the last dribbles of savings.

I unwrap. I meditate and think about how, not what.

I mustn’t think about the ‘what’; that’s the magic bit and I don’t want to spoil the experience by over-planning, it’s just not my style.

I come downstairs into the studio. I take pictures off the wall. I tidy away the unnecessary items and de-clutter my space until I can focus my gaze on the marvelous whiteness of the blank canvas.

I do not suffer with fear of the blank canvas.

I honor the ‘mistake is a door‘ school of thought and therefore hold no fear for what is not my enemy but my ally…to be respected of course!

Instead, I revel in the exciting dance of probability and possibility as they vie for birthing in the quantum space before me.

Milestones are set by events such as these.

I feel I’m ‘graduating’ from my self-taught school of learning art within life and weaving them seamlessly into one blanket.

I’ve arrived

This is why this thing exists

This is why I strive

This is how I have traveled here

This is my signpost

I grab a large brush and mixed the black paint. So satisfying!

My mind reaches for a new small hog-hair with the intent to paint a doodle…

No!? Before I can interject the large chunky black acrylic soaked brush sweeps my arm around the canvas in an arc…whoa!

Now that’s how to break the ice!

Pop goes the virgin canvas bubble as the surface tension is slashed by the black line of nothing and everything.

The line tells me….courage, conviction, fearless expression, bold demarcation, space boundary, empty corral

…the yellow comes slinking onto the canvas soon after. The lemon perfect in it’s primary simplicity and bright lucidity.

I am awakened!

name zen yellow bright bold black line encompasses a bright lemon yellow centre the epitomy of simplicity and bold minimalism gives you space to think and uplifting colour representing the inner sunshine healthy ego self acrylic on canvas by uk artist phoebe thomasson

I look towards the horizon and see a magenta spot on it’s way…

That’s a story for another day!
22nd Feb 2015

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Things are going in a doodles direction at the moment. It’s the best I can do as a full time mum at the moment. It’s certainly stimulating some new directions though! That is alwsys a good thing.

New Work: Floral Imaginings Series

 Welcome to my first show of digital artwork.

Floral Imaginings 1: Autumn Days
Autumn Days

 I’ve not had much time to create with paint recently, so I launched into an experimental couple of hours with Serif Photo PlusX6 instead.

It turns out it’s no different than painting in that you have to launch in, even if you don’t know what you’re doing and be unafraid to experiment.

 

Floral Imaginings 2: Winter Nights
Winter Nights

I have to say, I’m very pleased with the results and will be doing more of this type of thing.

I must admit, I’ve been reluctant to go there with the digital thing because I love painting in Real Time with real paint and canvas which maybe comes from being a bit of a purist, but as it is it is an exciting blend of Digital/analogue; the painting was done by me and so was the modelling!

Floral Imaginings 3: Spring Days
Spring Days

 

 It turns out that the opportunities to blend disciplines is what really floats my boat!

I’ve always loved to experiment anyway and I feel that having developed a sense of ‘fearlessness’ with my art has paid off.

The ideas continue to flow. I just need to carve out more time to realize them, but as ever, parenting comes first. If I can do digital work alongside my RT painting I think it will help me fill in the gaps.

This is very early work and I hope you like it enough to share and comment. I will be making some prints for sale too so watch this space for links to my shop.

 

Floral Imaginings 4: Summer Nights
Summer Nights

Thank you for your visit!

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Original Photography: Adam White

Model/Artist/Creator: Phoebe Thomasson

Copyright ©Phoebe Thomasson 2014

All Rights Reserved

a face is obscured by black shards mixed media collage by uk contemporary artist phoebe thomasson

The Silent Killer; Get Down You Inner Censor….

The inner censor is the killer on the loose in our psyches.

How do we know it’s there?… Well we don’t to start with, but if you have tried to be consistently creative and failed to keep up stamina then it might be that, like me you suffer from a strict inner censor.

The censor is very much alive in the outer world at the moment. I won’t go into it because either you know what I’m talking about because you listen to the news and it’s not my focus here.

The inner censor is the real enemy and the outer manifestation is the proof that the energy is alive and kicking in our culture.

Why does the censor do what it does? Why does it kill the creative impulse?

Because it hates imperfection. Because it loathes chaos. Because it detests the uncontrollable.

Any time we have an idea that we just can’t do something about may be a symptom that the censor is in control. The gateway is very narrow if the censor is in command as it is a mean gatekeeper that only allows the acceptable through. It has a long list of what is acceptable, but an even longer one of that which isn’t.

In the creative life we need to channel the crap as well as the good stuff. This is for the creative zone where putting our thoughts on paper is a safety net for our fears. What we do with it afterwards is another matter but unless we can get it through the gates in the first place is a matter of re-education.

We need to gently take the censor to one side and give it a bribe.

If you let more through the gates, I promise, the quality and standard of my work will improve and increase in ways you never thought possible. Do me a favour mate and look the other way when I have a crappy idea. I can’t get to the good stuff hiding underneath unless you let this through.

The censor will probably consider this a feasible option. Just make sure you make it work for its living and don’t let it rule the roost.

You’re in charge!

a blue hand exuding rays of golden and rainbow light by artist phoebe thomasson

Transitions Into Joy

How could I have lived this morning differently?

I could have given Ewan my undivided attention this morning instead of rushing into doing the washing up. I could have sat and centred myself before running headlong into working on anything other than my state of being. I could have left the brown envelope unopened until I had done my morning ritual. I could have let Dru have his morning smoke before I told him the bad news. I could have seen things differently instead of crumpling into helplessness and despair. I could have been patient with myself for feeling upset about it all.

I feel I need to get a morning routine that is more helpful to me. I want to enter the day in a conscious state of peace and joy not barreling around trying to catch up and missing so much.
I don’t want Ewan to feel left out and like he has to protest by weeing on the carpet. I don’t want to be angry with him any more.

Why despite a great night with friends do I feel so negative? It’s almost a default setting and I guess I need to spend plenty of time resetting my habitual mind.

I have a ‘poor me’ nature that is entirely outmoded in this new way of being. I need to get back my natural bliss. It has been hidden for so many years, so I need patience with myself.

Seeing as how I find difficulties where there need be none, it behoves me to pre-plan for these inevitable downers. What do I do when I feel confused, disappointed, dissatisfied or dissociated? What strategies can I put in place to help myself out of the darkness?

Time and again I must remind myself that I AM strong, I AM resilient, I AM tough.

I need to break through this layer of false weakness and find the real substance I know is there. I can bring my vibration to a high place if I practice and practice like I mean it. Remembering to do this must also become second nature.

Raise it up!
Don’t drop it!
We are riding waves
Of vibration
Simply put
It’s the only real issue
That matters!